Contemplations

Sometimes you want to make yourself heard. And that's why you write a blog. Or you play facebook. Play might not be the word. But forgive me for my profound lack of vocabulary. 

It has been a long time since I last read through our very own blog. I promised to upload regular postings but have gone against my word. Simply because it's a joint blog and no one seems to be interested in writing and partly due to the existence of facebook. This particular morning Lene's poetic work of art (I'm not sure if that's a poem. It might or it might not) set me up straight. It has an effect of stopping you right in your tracks and make you think: Hmm?? Kudos Lene. I'm not saying that I agree with what she has to put on the table, in fact I have to disagree with her (This very sentence would bring about a harsh beating on her part. And I would be the victim!) But chancing upon something which elicits something in you is as always, refreshing.

She shares her two cents on the very core of humanity, how people are slick creatures who change all the time and whether we are able to trust ourselves or others. Hmm I know it's a daunting task to try and wrap up her breathtaking piece in a mere sentence. And forgive me again if I did not do her justice. But my point here is are we that bad?

Was just listening to a talk the other day. To quote people may exploit us again again and again. Yet when every single time we choose to forgive we are buliding upon  our spiritual wealth. Maybe we are measuring everything by the wrong scale. The world has conditioned us, to a certain extent, to try and measure ourselves and everyone based on what we can get out of it. A simple action of kindness might be actually be laced with selfish personal reasons. A friendship might sprung up just because we, as deluded as we are, think that the other person has something that we want. People can do that to us. It's their choice. But it's not them that matters. It eventually boils down to us and what actions we choose and how they chart out the road that we will be treading on.

Personal experiences tell me that I am bigger than my own problems-I am bigger than others. Don't get me wrong here. When I say I'm bigger than others, I do not allude that I am better than others and I  should come first due to a sense of egoism. I mean I have the capacity to forgive, to learn and to let go. Whatever happens, whatever people do, I am bigger than that itself- I have a choice. To put that into my piggy bank of grudges. Or to smile, let go and be a better person. In every single entity is a seed of goodness. It might be temporarily clouded or covered but matter of fact is, it's still there. 

It's funny when you have in mind what to write and when you start to write everthing comes out differently. I was planning to talk on other things but miraculously, I churned out an article that vaguely looks like above. Again miraculously might not be the word. But wth. I've asked you to forgive me on my limited reservoir of vocabulary. LOL

(this is drafted in another blog few weeks ago,and i just noticed it today.for once i think i wanna try sharing my thoughts to the world. :) )

human relationship
complicated,isn't it?
one time,you can be the angel,
the other time,you can be the devil.
one moment,friendships are built,
the next thing,they break.

everyone has their own thoughts and opinions,
and actions reflects them.
they may be obvious,they may be purposely done.
human reacts,thus the cycle continues

what sparks and spices up everything is the greed within us.
don't say you're not greedy,
what you have and the intention of wanting more,
that's greed.
the only difference is that everyone has different levels of greed,
some would say it out loud
while commonly,some would keep it inside their hearts until the right time to lash it out.

isn't it fascinating?
intentions initiated,words twisted,emotions played
and human starts to influence one and another
to achieve what they want and maybe making the world go merry go round.

who can you trust from the start then?
the person you see everyday,
may not be the same person in the future.
even you yourself,
we grow,our mindset changes,
would you be able to trust yourself?

how much a person can change?
this can't be experimented through science,
nor can be calculated through physics,
nor can be dealt through business,
nor can be judged through law,
nor can be expressed through art..

no matter how skillful you are,
you can't see human relationship or the nature itself through the naked eyes.
everyone has their stories of their own and with the person connected to them.
which is the truth?
if you can find the truth,
would you believe the truth or are you gonna go based on your instincts?

no one is black and white.
all humans will always stay in the grey area.
don't you think so?

if you have read up to this point and whether you want to agree or disagree with me,
or whether you want to judge my nature,
i have successfully influenced you by stimulating your thoughts and opinions.
simple,yet so complicated,huh?

but then again,interesting.
isn't it?
:)