what can i say?

first of all, an early Happy Chinese New Year to everyone here!
this year's cny is a bit different. (mr gee in US and even my bro won't be celebrating it with me for the first time >.<) i don't know if i can attend this coming cny gathering. My mom always do things at whim, so its hard to predict. sorry guys.

on the discussion of human relationships, i must admit, i'm not philosophical, unlike hung, lene and hern. i believe my laziness is well known to all of you here. its very troublesome and pointless in my opinion to delve deep into these stuffs just to realize how helpless and insecure we are when it comes to human nature. but well, some found joy in contemplating. ^^

and about trust, i don't think the changing nature of human is a solid ground for distrust. trust is something that has to be earned. once its earned, it would not be broken easily unless you never trusted or truly understand the person you trust in the first place. people change (but rarely to the core), its inevitable and sometimes we just have to depend on our intuition. if you don't change people say you're immature or call you xiao di di (personal experience, not that i care much). perhaps the lack of an analytical mind and laziness to figure out the motive behind every action limits my exposure to this 'breaking of trust' thingy. trusting had never been real issue for me (i don't think i have lots of secrets, sadly). ignorance is bliss IMHO.

the bottom line is, less sensitive, less drama, happier life. and i surely hope i've done enough to earn your trust. and mind you, i've changed (though i still look as chubby as ever >.>) but i never felt i was apart with my best friends (not physically). being best friends, you should have faith in your knowledge of each other's character. not a moment of moodiness, sleepiness or tiredness should affect that easily. i'm lazy, yet i prefer spontaneity (ironic huh?). if i have something to share, i'll usually contact you guys straight away. (don't whine if i didn't do that all the time because i couldn't reach you when you're in US, Aus, HK, Japan, Indo or whatever). i hope that my reluctance to blog should not be used as a parameter for my 'commitment' to our friendships (my apology, my vocab sucks as much).

however, i will visit this place as often as i can from now on so that your thoughts will be heard and you can tell me how a tiny grain of sand influences your opinion of the universe. ^^ you have my word.


P.S Pictures FTW! most convenient way for me to see how well you guys are doing! i should get a cam and starts cam whore as well.

Edit: i don't write often. please refrain from flaming me. it'll burn a hole in my heart. LOL.